Hollywood Dreams

Urban Legends, Myths, and Conspiracies.

Since I was a kid, I always loved entertainment. Maybe because it was always the great escape from reality. Being a kid sucked some of the time. And being an adult sucks a lot of the time too. Movies and Entertainment always seemed like a lot of fun. But also allows people to explore and entertain many ideas. I have always had a need to be creative. Maybe it is something in all of us. I don't know. There is always a desire to express myself. I need a creative outlet. I always felt if you were lucky enough to make a living for being creative, talk about living the dream.

I grew up drawing a lot as a kid. Not a great artist but still being creative. And moved to Hollywood in 1999. I always thought actors were the luckiest bastards on the Earth. I always went to Hollywood as a kid to go to places like Universal Studios and went through Hollywood Blvd. Which always fascinated me. I wanted to live there. This is the place dreams come true. The entertainment capital of the world. I actually lived in Hollywood. The best I did in the entertainment world was worked as an extra for movies and tv. Some of the best memories of my life. But that is for another time.

I grew up pretty much with Christian beliefs. I think Christianity is miss understood by a lot of people. Young people usually get into some kind of music that they think understands them. And is usually rebellious. For me it was always Rock. But I wasn't rebelling against God. To me it was always something you felt powerless to control. Because our whole existence is controlled by something. There are moments that I have felt free in this life. Mostly when I have been alone with my OWN thoughts that are not someone elses.

Maybe I have always looked at Hollywood with innocence. Because to me being creative is better than being destructive. My first conspiracy books I read as a kid were things that had to do with the devil's influence in Rock music or stuff about the New World order. I was fascinated by the book of Revelation in the Bible about end times. So many movies with theses doomsday themes. This was before the internet and my exploration of conpiracies down the rabbit hole.

One time I was on Hollywood Blvd. And there was a bunch of Christians from some church protesting Hollywood. At the time I didn't get it. Maybe because it bothered me that the thing that was fun in my life was getting attacked. My escape from a world that is not cool. A world that wants to control everything. At one point in History Hollywood was controlled by a more moral code of what could and could not be shown in entertainment. That is why we have ratings on movies. At some point Hollywood degraded to immoral sex and violence. I always felt we should have some kind of balance. But what is too far? I don't like censorship. But I have boundaries myself.

Anyway It was years later that I started wondering more and having concerns about if a Christian could make it in Hollywood. Today it is very leftist politically. In my day there were fundamentalists going after music and movies. Today it is the politically correct left. They have become the humanist standard of morality and judgement. I do not like leftist ideology. It's anti American. It's anti Christian. It goes against freedom of speech. It tells me that I have to agree with it or I am some how a racist. It does not like me because I am White or that I am a Male or that I am heterosexual, or that I have Christian beliefs. It has probably ruined my chances of ever having a decent normal relationship with a Female because of feminism. And may have ruined my chances of ever going anywhere in Hollywood.

I have a kind of an academic fascination with conspiracies. Not in a classroom setting where someone controls what you learn. But learning on my own so I can discern for my self. I think conspiracies are a threat to people who control things in this world. If it wasn't, people like Alex Jones would not be taken off you tube. I am not saying that Alex Jones is someone they worry about. It's that people like you and me they do not want to have a voice . They want you to all go along with what ever the narrative is . And that there is a group of people out there that have to control everything under this moral conviction that they don't want people offended anymore. I think it is stupid in a way. Because it stifles creativity. Were at the point where movies in the past, that didn't offend people somehow offend this new group of social justice wussies.

If you can not question anything, then there is a problem. When I look at a society that is forcing one view point with out other peoples view points there is a problem. When I see a bias on things like You Tube and Twitter. People getting banned for free speech there is a problem. Leftists think they are not fascists but they would burn books in a frenzy like Hitler if it questioned their leftist ideology. They don't realize that leftist ideology is Marxist it embraces socialism communism and an attack on western civilization. Atheists question religion but do not want to take responsibility for all the communist dictators that were responsible for the many deaths under communism and atheism. This is why the US has stood in a way freedom wise that other countries haven't. There are countries that have killed people for belief in God or for having a Bible. Thank God that isn't the US. I just can not imagine how horrible that is.

I don't see how taking away religion is going to make the world a better place. There will be people that argue religion has been just as destructive for humanity. But it really isn't religion. It's human nature that has the ability to do good things or evil things. You can take something like Jesus teaching how to love man kind and the world would be in a better place. But the wickedness side of humanity is what destroys that. And can make it evil instead of it's intended purpose by using it in a different way to manipulate and control people. As some religions do.

The well known atheist Richard Dawkins, talks about how religion caused people to fly plains into skyscrapers. And describes the character of God in the old testament as being a racist homophobe. How stupid Dawkins would look if 911 had nothing to do with religion. And you can not lump Christianity with the same religion that supposedly caused 911. Does this make Dawkins an Islamophobe? Some how the left has been the experts when it comes to homophobes racists etc.

Then there is the smug asshole Bill Maher who has always mocked religion. He talked about how if religion gives you comfort it comes at a horrible price. Again why do atheists over look the horrors caused by Atheism? Horror by People who wanted to put an end to religion.

So getting back to Hollywood. And exploring the dark side. There are things you can't ignore. Going back to my question could a Christian actually make it in Hollywood? There is a book out there called How to Succeed in Hollywood without selling your soul. But it doesn't explore one of the not so talked about things. Do people actually sell their souls in Hollywood for fame and fortune? Are people really making pacts with the devil? I have gone down this rabbit hole quite a bit to find out the truth and have discovered some pretty disturbing things. If they are true. I guess I would have never made it. Because I do not want anything to do with selling my soul. Satanists would probably call me a coward at this point. But you know what, you risk your eternal soul in hell not me. And selling out to anything is about control anyway. That is not going to be what Satanists think it is. Guess what Satanists, according to the Bible Satan loses in the end.

I guess in stories there has always been this concept of good and evil. With out some kind of drama, how do you tell your story? You need a good guy and a bad guy. Satan has always been the bad guy except to people rebelling against God. It's not like Satanism does not exist, even if people don't believe the devil exists. There is well known Satanism that is known in Hollywood like Anton LaVey. Or Alister Crowley. But the stories of people selling their souls are like a lot of the other conspiracies of mind control like MK Ultra being used in Hollywood. And all these illuminati conspiracies. There seems to be a lot of craziness going on in the world of rap and hip hop as well. What about the stories of the casting couch and the Me too movement? You want a record deal you just might have to suck someone off. I have heard there is a lot of gay stuff going on in Hollywood. What about all those eyes wide shut type of parties? Are the actresses in Hollywood really dudes and you have been fooled all this time?

I have only read about a lot of this stuff that is pretty much well known with people that talk about conspiracies. And I'm not sure how much I really want to know. As a Christian, there is a lot in music that people probably shouldn't mess with. I used to think that most Metal bands just used all this Satanic stuff for shock. But there is always someone who has to take it further. The thing that really woke me up about something weird in Hollywood was the documentary Hollywood Unmasked. That video had actual celebrities talking about spirits taking over like becoming possessed when they perform. Some of the tragic endings of celebrities is kind of sad too.

When it comes to conspiracies finding out the truth some times can be pretty disappointing. But that is thing about conspiracies. A conspiracy is two or more people conspiring to do something despicable or wrong. And to make you think the story you are told is the truth. There are so many conspiracies that we really do not know the truth. And have become legends and myths or maybe there are half truths. There is so much to explore when it comes down to it. There are a lot of things people don't like to talk about when it comes to Hollywood, they are so controversial that they are hard to believe.